I was a few hours behind my planned time to start working on posts to write-up yesterday. Yes. I again underestimated the work I had to do in this case, but if I was disingenuous the posts would never be written at all. I continue because it is worth something to me to do the best I can. In retrospect I should not have even posted a timeframe in public, something that more than one person has recommended. If I gave myself the deadline privately, and then got done last night, no one would know the difference. So yes, this is entirely about being able to keep promises.
One of my primary weaknesses, as a person, has been "taking on too much at once." I've lived my entire life being shouldered with a lot of responsibilities - some of them nonconsensual. Being able to do this job willingly is a huge lift of burden away from that past, but I still have some self-discipline to do. I can cite successes while I've been here, but that doesn't change your personal experience with me or my lack of keeping to a timeframe with the public. So I'll change my style, set private deadlines and when things come out they come out, no need to give something like a 24 hour promise in most cases.
Taking action is the only resolution here, I think, and we'll do the translation work without your assistance. I won't say that I will succeed with the project outright, for all I know there will be unforeseen hiccups. However, in the event that I do run that project smoothly and we succeed, you might want to consider that I am doing the best I can. This is not about what I deem is important to spend my time on - I'm not in the business of ignoring people on purpose. What I need to do, is focus and discipline myself further.
If nothing else, please do not look at me like I'm here to be inconsistent on purpose. Look at me as someone who's doing their darndest to improve as both a person and a manager. And you know something? I think I have what it takes, just a matter of showing it. Means very little to you and some others in the present tense, but it's my statement and I stand by it. You have every right to be doubtful. However, I will not feel intimidated by that or give up.